Eid Mubarak my blog...

Eid Mubarak to my dear Blog and to all the islamic nation specially my dear Oman :)
And happy new year in advance to all..

كل عام وانتم بخير

some shots from this year (part i)

My brother Mans in my granmma's house during eid, it was in jan. we had lots of fun that day..

The sky was so magical that afternoon from this year

I couldnt miss taking a picture of it!

This was one day, the sky was so amazing that day, i opened my car's convertable, it was wwoow!

This was recently in the early december days, it was

raining so bad that day, it felt sad but i loved it..

Its the 3ed of DEC!

the 3ed of december is in exactly 20 minutes from this time here! Two of my best angels in this world are celebrating there birthday on this day! One will turn 25 and the other will be 21 just like me :)
i was the 8th in wishing my 25 year ols angel and the 4th in wishing my 21 year old angel! :( i was so sad cz i wanted to be the first!

Happy Birthday olo and Tuma :* may all your dreams come true and may our love last forever guys! I love you and i wish you all the best through our life :P

Have a blast guys! ;) shake the booty you have cuz you gotta wait 356 days till this day come again ;) inshallah..

My first design

Well my cousing is studying in this designing school and she came to me bescause she had lots of home works to do and she needed help! So she was told that i can drow things! All though i hate telling anyone that i do! Therefore she came to me and she begged me to drow a design for her and to use color effects and shadow in it! I was just like errrr who ever told you i can drow s/he lied! I'm not that good! am just ok! the girl was like pls pls so this is what i came up with! Thank god she loved it so much!

We have planes but God already planned for us!

I was so excited for the public holidays the goverment issued for us regarding the national day. I made lots of planes, me and my family decided to go camping and then go here and there.. it was 8 o'clock and we were suppose to go out at 10 A.M and i heard this strong knocks in my room then my mom came in and she was crying i got freaked out, i stod in my bed with my hair all bushy wondring what going on! Ma maa is everything ok, she said your grandmother passed away! I couldnt stand i felt oh my god! I was like which one of them! She was like my aunt the one who raised me after my mother died! I hold mom and gave her my condolenses am really sorry mama.. This is how we put a plane for our lives and god has already planed for us! I rushed to call my sister Salwa i called her and i was in shock salwa salwa our grandmother passed away! salwa bust in tears rushing to us..
about 9:30 i reached the funeral, everyone was there.. It was like eid or like a family reunin the only difference was that poeple were crying instead of smiling! Evryone was tearing up.. They took me to a room full of poeple and there she lyes! Like a sleeping beauty so peaceful and so calm. i was like its not possible maybe she fainted maybe she's a sleep maybe she's in a colma! I mean come on she's so peacefully smiling and its like in any moment will open her eyes and give me her usual smile when ever she see me. Her laughter is in my ears the way she used to call my name the way she used to eat her food and ripped it in to small pieces because she couldnt handle solid food due to her age.. Everything just clicked in my mind. The first thing i did was getting close to her and just looking at her face. A face that i would not see for real again till one day. It was time for her to be washed and to be coffined! I was in shock. The way they wshed her and dress her up like a little baby who cant move and you have to do everything for him, but this time this baby is sleeping without moving! It was time for them to take her. i looked at her covered body for the last time i came close and whispered i love you dear grandmother and i hope one day we will meet again..
after that i was thinking alot, i sat in a corner and saw how mama was so sad about her second mother.. i hate this feeling, you lose someone and it hurts so bad but all what you can do is just to accept it. i was thinking how do they feel why do they seem so quite, there under the crave how does it feel, what happeneds next, where do they go, do they wait long till the judgment day or its just a blink to them? many questions where up my head!! wondering wondering and wondering? how why and when? i exhurasted my mind from all the thoughts.. Finally i stood up from my place and said to my self one day it will be mom and one day it will be daddy and one day it will be ME! am i prepare for it? I can never be prepare for death but i have to give it more thoughts i should give it more time concendering whats after it and what might happened if i was in my grandmother's position! God planned that on the 28th of November 2006 my grandmother will die normaly while sleeping like he planned on Wednesday 18th of Augest 1999 for my brother to die in an accident. I'm waiting for my plane now and only who wrote it knows when and how.. God please have mercy on us and all the muslims during death and the judgement day Amen!

The ring (The curse)

I got a gift on my birthday from an angel.. The gift was a ring! Its been with me since that day till now so almost 2 months and i cant do a thing without it! i sleep with i eat with it i shower with it i do everything with it! I became possesed with this tiny round thing around my finger! Once i came out of the house in a hurry and funny enough i took it out for the first time cuz i was putting some hand loacian in my hands, so i went out and i FORGOT it and i reached all the way half to where i was heading maybe 5 KM away from where i was heading! I remembered it and i rolled back my car so fast just to reache to it :S
Since that day i make sure i wake up and see it in my hands and close my eyes and sleep after making sure that its where it belongs! So since then i call it the THE CURSE! cuz seriously my angel cursed me with it! But i love my ring any ways :P

Cought of the day..

Troubles and sadness may be in a person's life but you always see that person having a great bright smile in his face.. Shine in your days like you never have cuz you may never have that day again.. poeple loves to interfere in everything but the solution is always the ignorance and to keep go on.. Why to bother why to care why to feel pain, some say that i have no feelings cuz i care less or its either am not a humen beign but i always smile and say that i live to die tomorrow. be conciouse of whats going on and just be patient its just another day in your book. faith can be a powerful whepon if you use it right and it can be destroying if you over use it.. even the brightest person can fall. I never reached the bottom of anything cuz i shine most of the time just to smile and to complete my day and somone's day that i may not even know yet...
i got a tear in my eye today for the first time in public and someone can and said;
even the nearly perfect people cry but only the greatest will hold his tears and instead smile..
عظيم ذلك الانسان الذي يحبس دمعة وهو في قمة الالم ويشرق وجهه بابتسامه تعلو المه وتخفيه

Incubus- warning

Man this song is awesome! I used to love this incubus band through my freind Sam who used to tell me louds about them! i was like cool since i love rock songs! Then i fell in love with the band and thier songs specially the Drive song! And today i was just bored and felt like listening to them again and here i am again falling in love with thier cool song warning :P


P.S; the song lilnked to the title!

fix me..(dream)

dreams i have inside me, night life i have in my heart.. Having my love and our family . living in never land the whole time. feeling so happy and joyful, feeling so blessed.. All my dreams came true in my dream, all the fantasy i used to see came to real. i see everything here. my baby girl is next to me.. my love is holding me....
wake up! its all just a dream..
my reality hurts he's still with her, he's still there for her..
god please Fix me..

Just a misunderstanding..

Keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry
Live simple, expect little, give much
Fill your life with love, scatter sunshine
Forget your self, think of others
do as you would be done by

Changes and Time

Time passes and we dont see the way things change! but after a while when we remember we feel and we miss, its really weird how we feel we're not satisfied at this moment then after a while of time or a year or two we wish if time reverse and we live what we had before because we couldnt see how valuable it was for us back then! I'm a person who really hates changes all though am really flixable about everything in my life! Changes are something good most of the time if its developping your life, but most of the time a person needs to accept it and move on! I cant do that but most of the time i have too! And i move on and re-new everything in my life.. Memories is something happy but mostly sad, Losing a person is a very sad memory and remembering how s/he was in your life is a happy memory.. What i get from all this; is that happiness cant servive without sadness..

Books

Two books am dying to read!
1- The Time Traveler's Wife..
2- Vernonica Decides To Die!

The introduction to the two books is so attracting! Will go search for them in my favorite book store here in Muscat which is the FAMILY book store! Hopefully will find them, otherwise i'll have to order them somhow :/

My car/ Stranger in Moscow

Well my car pased away last night :( the battery was low so me and my baby (my car) were saperated from each other, therefore i had to use my mum's old gulf (1998) one! Actually it was my brother's (god mercy his soul) for that mum didnt want to let go of the car! So i end up using the car and i found a Michel Jackson tape in it so i was like hell yeah i love this dude so lemme listen to it! Funny enough when i switched on the music, one of MY favorite songs of the King of pop was on; which was Starnger in Moscow. Yo i was all happy and i got some really old memories back out of it! I felt blessed! Therefore i end up listening to the song for the whole day while working here in my disk ;)

p.s for my dear blog; the song is linked to the title ;) And its video as well lol.

Oh i feel happy... :P

Light a candle of hope!

it is true, it is very difficult at first to move on easily, you will start blaming your self, where did you go wrong, why did all this happen,,,,unger & tears will drop on, cuz you think you tried your best to make it work out. How long it may take to cure depends on you, and on how long the relationship was, where you married ,have kids…. ext. Breakup happens cuz you where meant to be with that person for that period of time to learn and grow. In the future, you will meet who you are meant to complete your life with for a certain time or until your life ends never know. The strength is the ability to love as if you never loved before, to have faith it will last forever. Despite, what you know the only constant in life is change. Without this strength and risk taking of getting hurt again you will not be able to find the true love of your life. So it is all about time, and in this time you got to love your self & stop criticize it totally. You should believe you both deserve happiness, and you wouldn't want to spend your life with someone who doesn't love you as you do. Don't block your pain, but let your self feel it with all the memories, cuz blocking it will keep it their for along time. Keep a diary of all the process you are going on. Write in it how you feel every day. First, make a list of what will you do for someone you love that is heart broken for example, I will buy them the thing they always wished to have. I will take them to a party with all the friends they enjoy time with. I will write a love tender letter to them. What ever comes into your mind, and do that exactly for your self. Express what ever you feel every day into your diary. This will help you get out of your emotions. Don't rush into a new relationship just to forget the other one. Be sure you really want it and you are almost healed up. Remember no one can heal you except your self. It will be good to write also what you learned from your breakup, all negative thoughts turns them to positive. For example, you thought you learned never to believe someone promise cuz they may break it easily. Re-arrange it, I learned to be more careful in whom I trust, how, I will give it more time and I will be more concerned with actions than words, I will trust again & will be able to forgive when it is broken again. In the end all figures are not the same. I love the song called " the next time I fall in love " . It describe the lesson learned from breakup. In conclusion, Believe that you are able to go over this emotional set back, you can also read books on how to heal or read articles in the internet. You will find a lot of stuff. At the end, know that without any risk in this life you won't get what you want. Keep believing there is a true fulfilling love that will last forever and that you are willing to let it enter your heart again some day.

Dare you to Move

Its weird how poeple have something inside them where they want to do so bad but they postpont it for another day. I dare you to move and live the moment and risk and think its your last day and like today will never happened or will ever happen or has never happened before!
Just do it and go for it! Just an advice to my dear blog!

The entertainment team!

Having an amazing event here at work in december...
Have to work hard on making it a success :)


Good luck dija ;)

What i read in the newspaper today..

One of my favorite topics is astronomy and as always i go seek in newspapers anything related to our galaxy.. So today i read in Al-Watan that at the 17th of Oct at exactly 02:30 A.M the moon will be next Saturn in tuesday that night which is practicly tomorrow.. It will be clear in Oman's sky till dawn comes..
Cant wait to spend my night in the roof ;)

Last night while driving back from work at 1:30 AM i relized that i have no fuel! But beat it i drove till home risking that my car will stop! lol but i will never stop no matter what cuz i hate stoping for filling my car! So daddy am sorry you have to fill my car till i die :S heheheh

Honey its just an axcuse for him not to feel guilty!

Well well well what can i say about the world of men.. They're just trying so hard and so much to act and BE smart but the fact is US girls are much smarter in some way! I mean come on guys admit it girls are much wiser then guys most of the time! In most cases a 13 years old girl is much mature then a guy in her same age! We think we use our brains! Only in one case a girl might get stupid and silly and that case would be when she follow her heart and fall in love!!!
One of my (stupid case) friend fell in love with this guy and she made a fool of her self to be frank as i told her lol.. so the story in short words she fell for him he has an old girl that he cant STOP taalking too, she found out and dumbed him! Stupid check was thinking oh there's hope he will get back to me in the end! The dude was trying his best to be so charm and stuff but no use she's still waiting! you know to make him pay back the pain! NOW after waiting for 4 months or more he came out of no where all though he know its nottrue and he accused her to leave him for a guy! And after giving up his lame SILLY EXCUSE he went back to his girl and he changed his NUMBER HAHAHAHAHA how silly and lame and STUPID is that! And as i told my preciouse friend; Honey its just an escuse for him not to feel guilty! Selvish eh.. Tpical man!

again we reach this time of the year where we all have a month of peace and speritial balance between everything... Ramdhan Kareem to all