Honey its just an axcuse for him not to feel guilty!

Well well well what can i say about the world of men.. They're just trying so hard and so much to act and BE smart but the fact is US girls are much smarter in some way! I mean come on guys admit it girls are much wiser then guys most of the time! In most cases a 13 years old girl is much mature then a guy in her same age! We think we use our brains! Only in one case a girl might get stupid and silly and that case would be when she follow her heart and fall in love!!!
One of my (stupid case) friend fell in love with this guy and she made a fool of her self to be frank as i told her lol.. so the story in short words she fell for him he has an old girl that he cant STOP taalking too, she found out and dumbed him! Stupid check was thinking oh there's hope he will get back to me in the end! The dude was trying his best to be so charm and stuff but no use she's still waiting! you know to make him pay back the pain! NOW after waiting for 4 months or more he came out of no where all though he know its nottrue and he accused her to leave him for a guy! And after giving up his lame SILLY EXCUSE he went back to his girl and he changed his NUMBER HAHAHAHAHA how silly and lame and STUPID is that! And as i told my preciouse friend; Honey its just an escuse for him not to feel guilty! Selvish eh.. Tpical man!

again we reach this time of the year where we all have a month of peace and speritial balance between everything... Ramdhan Kareem to all

And i'm finally legal !!!! :D

yeah on the 3ed i've reached my finall stage in "the being old life"! lol ..
The sentense that really cracked me at mid night that night when one of my work co screamed YOU'RE FINALLY LEGAL loool i laughed big time and everyone started singing for me there and for the first time ME moi the devilished girl got shy and all red at that moment lol! Phone calls and sms's were coming like crazy to my cell and i was just confused about everything! I HATED my self at that exact moment lol a person should be happy but i was all nervese and sweating! :S i hate such embarresing moments but it was so good and i loved it :)
It was like the national day or something , i felt so popular. Felt good but something was missing :)

i had a blast...

The Expected Tradagical End..

Day one came and i reached a cloude
day two reached and i opened the sky with my hands
i flew across roads, rivers i saw through my path with you
one night with my throughts and i and you appeared again
what is going on in my life, what is my heart beating for
a long a spirital night i had that day
a lonely moment with my soul and his i hold so tight
had so many evenings hugging him and just playing with his eyes
had so many occasions where we were one and one is us
felt him going so deep in to me, shared a life time knowing him so close
day thousand came and i'm still happy but where are we reaching
i spred my wings and i just flyi dont know where am i heading
i just fly and i have no fear at allthe saftly part is still here
the warmth that i feel is just to much to with i deal
its too much to be free nor real
than a year two came, a life time for my soul
and right over there everything stopped
and the expected tradagical end came....

Love...

Love is just a word a game a toy in someones hand. the funny part is that you love someone so bad so hard till you cant breathe and at first you didnt even know that person does exist. You were totally cool without him and you were so free and cheerful and having a peacful life without him. Than out of a sudden he's here and you're so happy you're flying from happiness first month the second one than what a whole life like this. Not a big deal you'll wait cuz you love and you wait and wait and you lose cuz of that one particular person. And then you reach a level where you dont know who you are any more you're just lost in a world of doubts and you lost every thing around you even your own self just waiting for that ONE simple thing and in the end NOTHING! you give everyhting and you sacrifise ALL and in the end you get played and he will preffere someone else who will make you think do i have something wrong in me! and the answer is ITS NOT ME its him. I'm perfect i am every guy's dream i have it all but why cant this ONLY one person see this. i dont need the whole world to see it i want you to see it. After this you go through the same cyrcle every day and you'll end up lonely crying the whole night thinking do i deserve this am i that stupid to keep waiting for some kind of a dream. Love is a fairy tale there's no such thing now days. its 1 out of 5 who will stay faithful to the other partner. Love is a word in the wind you can see it but you can feel it but it will never last cuz it has to fly away some where else.

An e-mail from America

Well got an e mail from my favorite uncle that i love and havent seen forever... it made my day :)

Addicted to Lost!

A friend of mine at work have being buggine me about this Tv show called "Lost" i was just like what the hell is wrong with him and he always come with eeh lost is the best LOST lost lost lost!
i got fed up so i tend to ignore him most of the time! :S lol
then i came and saw Opra the other day and interviewed this cute HOT dude about him staring in the LOST show i was cracking up when i saw the name of the show cuz i remembered my friend from work! And than i decided to ask him for the DVDs to watch them. Than the whole addiction started! ITS SO COOOL i loved it and the story and actores the whole package of the series its amazing!
My favorites are Sawyer with his weird character and Jack with his so concerning carring responsible personality! Damn i love these two :D

The wedding!

Its mum again dragging me to one of her weddings! Went there and doooo that was one hell of a wedding! I went lesbo last night man! Chicks where so HOT i mean lol no i'm not a lesbo or anything not even bio but DUDE! every one was dressed up and looking so cool with their cute flufy alphets. kinda weird but loved it! lol The groom was the brother of a minister and the family are fealthy rich. The funy part that the family brought their servents from their home twon! Stupidity i was sitting with a wide open mouth looking at how these poeple accept this treatment from any one. Well curiousity killed the cat, i went there and asked one of the women who serves (they were wearing the same traditional clothes all of them) i was like mmm why do you let them treat you like this. The crazy chick started to yell at me that its the way it is since ages i was like well you dont need this and you're not forced to do it any more.. The lady started yelling and calling poeple and saying come see this crazy girl what is she saying. My mum's friend which is the grooms sister looked at me with this weird what the hell are you doing look. She called my mum so i was like SHIT now this is serious! The lady started telling my mum tell your girl not to get in to poeple's business!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mum looked at me with that what the hell is wrong with you look and i just like WELL MUM and i heard her shushing me only! lol we went out of the wedding cuz mum got embaressed of my deeds! :S what a wedding!

Making a decision!

I used to have a problem in making the right decision. But finally i'm over that! How and why?
Well i can answer the why part but not the the how part! Well how cuz being hanging with two decision is difficult and it leads you insane comparing the two which in the end you end up in a same cyrcle. Its a weekness thing i can say. To be stuck in your decisions not knowing what you want. Choosing between two things is totally hard but i believe that you can always follow what balances your heart and mind! And in the end you'll reach the right thing! Thus in some cases you might choose the wrong decision but the consecuences of that decision will never make you regret what you choose! Its just pathetic now after i look at it when i used to confuse my self about everything! Just make it snappy and be strong and choose what you want and what you feel is right even if the wholw world see it wrong!
;)

ITS FRIDAY!

damn i hate this day its so slow and the time is just not running at all! The crapiest day of the weekend! i'm working on this day so its gives me that depressing feeling that i'v never felt in my life eeeeeeeeeeeeeekhhh!

A so sleepy day! I feel sleepy that i fell a sleep while talking to a customer :S i was trying to invent a lie to my boss all day but nothing seems to wrok :(

I HATE THIS DAY!

Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive -
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave -
and still I have the pain I have to carry-
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried -
after all this time -
I never thought we'd be here -
when my love for you was blind -
but I couldn't make you see it -
that I loved you more than you'll ever know -
and part of me died when I let you go -
I would fall asleep -
only in hopes of dreaming -
that everything would be like it was before -
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting -
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor -
after all this time -
I never thought we'd be here -
never thought we'd be here -
when my love for you was blind -
but I couldn't make you see it -
after all this why -
would you ever wanna leave it -
maybe you could not believe it -
that my love for you was blind -
but I couldn't make you see it -
couldn't make you see it -
that I loved you more than you will ever know -
and part of me died when I let you go -

A world of insanity...

Its weird how you have many experiencs in life trhough your whole life in everything. Like its known older people are more wiser cuz of their experiences in life, yet thats not what i believe since old poeple now adays as i can see are just acting in simple words (childish). Over 20 years old and still gossiping and still going through stupid love affairs! I mean how can age tell you that person is wise or not! Even a 10 year old can be wiser then a 20 year old depending on how do you look in to life and how do you deal with things. Experiences can always be a good lesson for you to change the way you look in to things and the way you make decisions. How can an adult like 25 years old say that i cant live wihtout someone in my life calling in the middle of the night to sweet talk to me! What kind of immaturity is that! Life is much bigger that physical feelings and silly stuff. Life is a way to reach for a bigger thing. Its a short period where we live with a high esteame manners! Where i think the person should concentrate on being more cheerful and seriouse in the same time! And having a balance in all things in a person's life gives him the spirit to face and survice in everything and most of all he/she would definitly gain the respect from poepel and gaing a respect to his own soul. Its just so sad how i see our generation these days not devloping their selves and just wasting their time and life in things that are not useful at all not to them or to the human race! How can i rate the wisdom and the maturity of each person! By their deeds and of course by their thoughts which reflect them in the end and give us all as a one global family the peace we need..

Cheers to the world of insanity..

Guess who's back! [some snap shots from my life]

Ok it me back again to my stinky humble Blog! hehe! well during my leave from work from school from the net from every thing! Just had some sweet calm holiday with me and my books and my life! Was studying for my exams "thank god they went well" during that time in home i was just taking some photos by my mobile and thought to post them here! Some are dumb but hilarious! lol; Woke up the first day in my holiday and was freaking hungy!
No one is home all at work and schools and this is what i found
i wanted to cry at first i was like noooooooo i NEED FOOD not rubish!
However i ate it and i was happy and satisfied.. Thank you god for this
bless :)

Mum went to Matrah ( a place in Muscat) To get some

Cheap stuff she wanted. Went with her and i was smei dead wanted

to sleep so took this pic on the road to cheer my self up!

Went to college to meet Mr Damo (Dams like i call him)

For some question i wanted to ask! Took this photo

and send it to my cousin for a laugh! Damn this guy is tall! :/

I saw it in a magazine and took it for fun!
My baby (my car) Isnt she a beauty! :angel:

Aaaaaah i'm in love!

Went to work for a visit the next day! ppl at work

were going crazy cuz of some issue! This was the

que board and the ppl on waiting as it shows reached to

65 call! Damn that was a busy day for my poor colleague!

Went back home saw my kid bro running half naked

in the house i was like Whhhh lol he always do it

so took this one while he was making some actions

Acting like spider man he's favorite charectar!

Went to my aunt's place like we always do every

Thursday and saw this from my car's window and took it!

The magazine pic again!
My lovely Cat :May3ah" man i love my baby may3ah!
Was driving the other day and took this pic!
I woke up in this day and the weather was woow

Went to our living room and took this shot!

It shows out garden :)

My baby ( my car) Again! :angel: :)
My baby boy ( cousin) he's name is Mundhir!

He's so noisy but i love him to death! He was surprised

When i took this one! :P

went to work for some papers and one of my colleauge took this

pic of my shoe! lol he send it to me latter! Awain he likes the shoe!

Away!

Well well well i have my exams coming and i'm just exhorsted from work and this silly job is just leading me to go crazy! Yeah the superviser position is killing every one here and they need about 4 ones where i work and every one is taking that chance to prove him/her self as a leader!
Excuse me colleagues its OMAN it only works with WASTA! so what the hell i'm away from here for two weeks! BYE creapy company will meet up after 14 days exactly :D
Well its really sad that i and some over here are working so hard and working thier buttes in many things round here and all what they get is Sh!it ... Yes i'm so angry and just feeeling like killing someone at the moment! Its not just about work even my silly love life is going trhough hell now! Ehhh random words are just coming out of my heart to my hands to be written in this place! nothing is fair you go right you get wrong you do wrong you get right! :S:S:S:S:S:
this world in this country in this company in this office i'm just feeling like to scream!
I love i'm being betraid i work hard i'm being ignored! What can i do more than this!
Screw everything i'm away!

The Bold And the Beautiful <<<< Link!

My favorite TV show that i used to watch since i was in the third grade lol! Yesterday was episode 4608 and its the sloweset soap that i ever saw but mmm not slower than days of our lives lol. Well this soap is just one of the amazing tv serieses that i ever saw! The Forrestet family and the generation after it living to see the kids of Ridge, Taylor, Brooke and the great Eric Forrester. I'v being addicted to my show since alittle gal. My mum was a big fan too since it attrack such women and young girls,not any more though. But the amazing part about this tv seriese is that each time the writters just come with new things whcih make it more interesteing and the actores in it are just growing in the screen with the audience! US lol!
Its story is just so close to poeple who are watching it and the things happeneing in it make us live and believe in whats going in the forrester family... Yaaaay what a great show but i'm a bit mad about Ridge since he chose Taylor instead of brooke! I mean yes Brooke is a bit tough but her personality is just that strong lady who always go after what she wants! That Logan lady is just wow! When it comes to Dr; Taylor she's ok for a personality who's calm and just peacful! But she's kinda mmm i dont know so easy to be fooled! :S Cant wait for episode 5000 to come lol :P

An Old friendship!, bringing old memries (Part I)

:) well well well what can i say about some really old friends that i have and can willl have forever in sha2 allah.. 4 gals that being there for me and for eachother for the past 9 years from my life! Sam, Ju, Duda, Nusy...
well how did we met a funny story actually. lol i was sitting in this school table the first of our 7th grade class. And i was just having this arrogent face lol and there was this girl that our teacher has chose so she can be in charge of the class while she's gone for some school work! So comes this girl to me and says; hey can you sit in the chear since its not allowed to sit in the table! I just gave her that face and just totally ignored her! lol that was childish i know! heheh but that she just walked away from me and started talking to her other frineds (ju, Nusy) and i just totally acted like miss Whatevvvee lol! than it started by hate and latter on by days passing ju started to be close to me since i used to make her laugh the whole time! and that i started to hang around those 3 gals thus sam was a bit cold with me since that insident that happened between us! latter on we were just being good friends and having reall fun and we laughed a lot.. And actually i was miss Samyah's favorite Puppy lol! She's our "Ejtema3eyat's Teacher" and i was just being her favorite student and i used to call her miss bamyah lol! and sam was miss Iman's favorite gal well she was the brightest in 3loom" Sience. And than one day come where we were suppose to have some kind of lesson but than out miss was absent and we had this miss Shiekha as our seatter replacment! LOL she was really obnoxiouse and was really that type that get angry in a heart beat! So the first thing she said after slamming that door so hard! I dont want to hear any noise ir you're all going to be punished! So all of us were just sooooo quite! lol the hilarious part comes next! Sam has brought her walkman! lol and ju was listening to BARBY GIRL under her white school scarf! and i was just sitting in the front side of the class and i got this note from the girl back my side! the note said; Hey come sit with us! So i knew it was my new cool freinds. so i went to them after asking permetion from that angry looking miss shiekha! so she said fine lucky me! So i came and the class was just like in dead silence and poor ju was just in another world with her barby song lol! So i was walking with a smile on my face and i was walking like marra with no sound! lol so i wouldnt disturbe that angry looking miss! so i was just reaching the chears where ju, sam and nusy where sitting and than out of a suddent ju look up and saw me so with LOUD SHARP NOISY voise she said HIIIIIIIIIII DIJJJJJJAAAAAA and every one was just like HUH! and i had this terified look up my face and sam turned RED and the girl is still surprised what happened here! and the miss stood up looking directly at ju with her funny smily face and i was just feeling like ooooh my god, sam was pulling the headset from ju's ears and every one is just STARRING at her and the class just blew up in laughter and the girl is still shocked and surprised about what happened! And at that moment i just turned my eyes in to that angry miss who was screaming and yelling BLA BLAAA BLAAAA and ju was punnished to stay up standing the whole lesson LOOOL! me, sam and nusy where just CRYING from laughter and ju is still asking whats going on WHATS GOING ON lol and i just couldnt help it on laughing tham miss Shiekha yelled ENOUGH lol so i just couldnt so we all end up standing with JU LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

Wow what great memories! will come with more some other time! yeah the part where we met Duda was hilarious like never! :P

The reason

i'm sorry that i harmed you

i'm sorry that i killed you

i'm sorry that i found you

i'm sorry that i catched a tear

i'm sorry that i felt you

i'm sorry that i loved you or even smelled you

forgive me for each moment i breathed you

spare me from the guilt of living withing you

kill me for not keeping my heart where are you

slag me for holding your hands between my fingures

i'm not a different person from who am i suppose to be

to change i was the one that used to be

for faith i held my whisperes to thee
for you i said that i have to go
for you i found a reason to start over new
for only he whcih i meant you
can i take it all away and be the reason for you to hear
i never meant to hold you near and close everything for free
to be with you i had to make a wish to come true
i'm not perfect to do things that i wasnt suppose to do
its something that i'm living with every day for so
a reason to reviele and to open up for me to feel
its only a reason to live again
its only a reason to love again
its only a reason for you

i loooove surprises but i hate them !

well mmm this kinda conflecting and weird but its ME! :/ LOL
i lovvve doing surprises to poeple and i just love to see them shocked about things i do :P
BUT if it comes to me poeple surprising me NAAAAAAAA i hate it! i just dont know its much better if they told me and oh well i'll act surprise about it if they want x) this sounds stupid but hey i wanna be preppared for any surprise being dedicated to me! i mean what if i was the star of a surprise party and i was filthy and not MUTKASHKHA like i was suppose to be on my party.. Thats just lame! well lol its nice but naaaaaaa i'd love to surprise ppl who loves surprise but not to surprise poeple who dont like MOI! xD
well mmmm i saw this colleague or more like a friend of mine at work who got this HUGE cute rapped gift from someone who was brought at work and she was sooo happy, shocked , sad, blushed and she was just like OH MY GOD.. well poor she every one was teasing her.. oooooooo from who from who why how when! and i was just like leave the poor gal alone! maskeena she was red like a tomatto lol! maskeeeeeeeeena!
NO SURPRISES for me please! x/ thats if any one thought of it lol!

Maryam Al Bakry

Gosh i know this will seem like a lesbo talking but the truth is something else X)
Well this girl that i used to work with a year ago is one hell of a woman to be honest. She's just the exact role modle of the girl i wanna be and wanted to be. Her way of living her way of thinking her success and her funny way of talking when its time. She just walks and every one is forced to respect her and she just cought every ones attention. the confidence in her personality is amazing and she's so down to earth all though every one just go wooooooo butterflyes each time she just passes by. Un fortunatly she joined the compnay the get some cash to travel abroad to complete her studies.. Well today i saw her back and i was just shocked when i saw her in front of me that i screamed OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD lol :P and i just went and hugged her (again no lesbo thingi involved) she's still that adorable girl that makes me feel wow this is a good day and i can make my way to my success road. Well she's still as pretty as last time i saw her as cool and fun and encouraging as last time i saw her lol x) and the best thing ever SHE GOT ENGAGED wooooooooooooow i was soo happy and i was sooo excited for her, And she was like doooont follow my leads now lol you're still pretty and young to get involved with men now! LOL i felt eeeeeeeeeeh BUTTERFLYES every where! x)
Bless you Maryam ;)
againg i'm not a lesbo just someone i really admire and respect :)
Cheers!

The pay check day x)

Well well well one of the best days in the employees life is the pay check day x)
At work poeple are waitting patiently for the day where they get thier cash. Just like in the jungle animals are waiting for the day where they can practise thier sexual activities x)
So the day they get thier cash... Malls, coffe shops, movies and resturants are full and packed with workers... All the plans are post ponted till the day they get the cash...
Haaaaaaa suhaila mattaa will buy the 3abbayah... MMMM when we get the cash la! x/
Huh shaimaaa when shall we go to the movies.. mmmm when we get the cash la.
Hey Najwani when are we going for the picnic... Abe! wehn we get the cash la x/
X/ X/ x/
DOKOM they finihs thier money is ONE day and be left with nothing till the last day of the month where they get the cash again... Why cant they save and be happy all days and mmmm spend as much as they can during the whole week. Not like spend it in no time! just like the animals in the jungle having needs in one certain sesson :S and zats it!
POEPLE SAVE MONEY GOD DAMN IT! lol