Thoughts only!
It ends here....
Sunday, August 30, 2020
2020!
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
To the ones who think they can change the world
Saturday, November 04, 2017
When someone stops loving you.
It’s been years that I felt this love demolishing into a black hole that sinks me in deeper and deeper. But that big epic love just falls slowly and cuts deeper cuts, the more it dies. Until one day it just stops and you know that this love that you have been holding on so close has stopped and it’s nothing but beautiful and bitter memories. I read similar stories and live with similar situations where people just simply live with each other because of the fear of change, the fear of society and the fear to lose this so called life. And they simple sunk into a life without feelings and it just leaves a big hole in this person. You become a figure, an empty statue that carry his life on his shoulder like it’s a heavy weight. How can you get out of this trap. How can you face life and starts these feelings again. There are small moments that sparks sometimes. But they are thin memories and you get sunk into reality shortly. I bet a lot of people go through the same. Missing that sparkle where you can’t lye your hands from each other. It’s just funny how you keep denying this painful truth when someone stops loving you.
Saturday, September 30, 2017
The art of emotions.
Funny how the heart always drains you, ur thoughts, your energy and everything around you. Can I just rip my heart off my chest? Can I just live without emotions? I need to be steal again, I have to live body mind and soul only. That's how you protect your self, that's how you always be alert and away from things and humans that can harm you. Emotions and feelings are meaningless to us. We keep on falling in the same bate over and over again. You put ur heart into things and humans that suppose to mean something to you , humans you love and treasure. You evolve your life around them hold on to them sacrifice everything for the sake of them, because of emotions. And when the time comes you expect them to do the same. But they simply don't because they have other feelings and other emotions that your suppose to respect and follow blindly even if it means harming you and hurting you. It's just simply funny that I always do the same to my self, expect and then fail my expectation and stay hurt mumbling with my harmed feelings. Without a soul to care.
Screw you feelings, I am going vampire again
Monday, December 07, 2015
Human Nature
anyways! Human nature is whats on my mind these days! its so weird how can a person change at once into the complete opposite of what they have always pretended to be! today I've learned two important lessons about Humans, words are meaningless until they are in action! there is no such things as promises as these are very rare and can always be broken! second of all trust is something precious, never give it to just any person as simply through the speed of life and the speed of change these people might simply change believes and can simply work against what attracted you to them in the first place! Humans are inconsistent and they will never be, so only build a real relationship to the ones that you truly admire and treasure. And this trust should not just come over one night or over few conversations what we need to keep reminding our selves over and over again that trust is built by years and days of consistent actionable act that will build this deep relationship you are giving birth to whom ever it is. As MJ once said If they say WHY WHY just tell them that is Human Nature!
Sunday, May 26, 2013
The school of life!
Monday, February 18, 2013
The land of dreams
Do i dare to live there again?
my head is twisted with so many doubts. even in the moment of happiness i find my self left out wondering will it last? it got me worried all time thinking will it last to the extend that i cant be happy without worrying. i am left dreaming within reality. convincing my self that this all a big dream and i will wake up one day either by my clock alarm or by a slap or by a hidden force that will wake me up from my fantasy. these dreams that i persuade has only destroyed who i am, has only made me a person that i don't recognise. the instability in my feelings has created a flat line that feelings refused to fluctuate between sadness and happiness. this flat line has kept away from being happy or sad. no emotions at all its like i am actually in the land of dreams... where the sky is red and the sea is pink... you see if pink and red but you simply cant believe its true....